Sabbath Prayers: The Road Ahead.
by Chris Kamalski
I identify strongly with Thomas Merton’s heart in this prayer entitled “The Road Ahead” this evening.
My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this, you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore, I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone. (Thomas Merton)
Sometimes this is my heart more frequently than I’d ever wish to admit. C.S. Lewis wrote in Mere Christianity that he ‘woke up each morning a practical atheist,’ and that there was a momentary split second where he would choose to will his heart either toward or away from God that day. I feel that tension in my life all too often, and frankly, live far too many moments willingly apart from the Christ who dwells within me.
And yet Merton’s words bring comfort, for in some mysterious way, even as I ‘live apart’ from Christ, Christ lives this ‘with me’ in some manner. This is quite possibly what grace experientially feels like…
Looking forward to seeing you in a few months. Travis and I just returned from West Africa and he’ll be joining Patty and me when we are in London mid-May through mid-August. We’ll be visiting you guys in July.
Enjoying your blog.
YES!! I am so so excited to hear from you. I miss you, Patty, and Trav deeply! Please tell them hello for me.
I can’t wait to see you friend, to dream with you, and to be encouraged by you. You have led me well in shaping me to be where I am, and I am so grateful for your encouragement to continue walking forward. Looking forward to connecting more personally soon!
When are you coming down specifically? I want to block the dates out…
Please email me with how I can be praying for you and CRM as a whole…
One book title that has been encouraging me lately is “A Long Obedience in the Same Direction” by Eugene Peterson. My mentor told me about it recently. I haven’t read it, but that idea of being obedient to what God has called us to (making Disciples of un-Churched HS students SC/SJ) and doing it for the long haul brings me peace and rest in the midst of striving and wanting to see results and transformation today! It’s what I thought of when I read Merton
powerful title, isn’t that? i hear you and love the thought. more powerfully is your ability to state your mission in one sentence…
i miss you bro. we need to catch up.
‘A Long Obedience’ is a wonderful book – and the title is worth the price of the book. We read it in our couples Bible study back in the mid-eighties, I think it was. MY book is probably a third to a half underlined. Chris, I have an extra copy , the 20th anniversary edition ( the book was first copyrighted in 1980); it has a new preface by Peterson, and I can send it to you if you want. You (and Mark) will enjoy reading it. It may seem simple to you Biola grads, but sometimes simple is profound – and easier to grasp and remember – and then apply. Good pics – I’m still trying to figure out how to put my camera pictures on the computer – I think there’s a cable missing…
you can get extra cables at target or best buy likely.
you don’t need to mail me that book–i’ve got several others i’m ‘waiting’ to ask you send me as they come out this year though…