Becoming Chris Kamalski

"There's a Writer outside ourselves, plotting a better story for us" ~Don Miller

Tag: C.S. Lewis

His Idea Of Goodness Differs From Ours.

C.S. Lewis is bloody brilliant:

Beyond all doubt, His idea of ‘goodness’ differs from ours; but you need have no fear that, as you approach it, you will be asked simply to reverse your moral standards. When the relevant difference between the Divine ethics and your own appears to you, you will not, in fact, be in any doubt that the change demanded of you is in the direction you already call ‘better.‘ The Divine ‘goodness’ differs from ours, but it is not sheerly different: it differs from ours not as white from black but as a perfect circle from a child’s first attempt to draw a wheel. But when the child has learned to draw, it will now that the circle it then makes is what it was trying to make from the very beginning. [C.S. Lewis in The Problem of Pain, p. 30]

How is God using His goodness to shape you?

I Am A Christopagan.

My most recent musing at

I am a Christopagan.

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So much of my heart would prefer other things than God, and the journey of walking with Him today. My short list as I type would include: sleep, a Chipotle burrito + Dr. Pepper (sadly absent from the African continent), a nicer cell phone, the reading of a spiritual classic (possibly some Merton would satisfy the soul this morning?), and many other things.  I momentarily (in my best days) embrace the person of Christ in my soul with any sense of whole-heartedness.  I don’t write this in a spirit of condemnation or self-flagellation, but in reality.  This is the nature of my heart, even as a man restored in Christ and living in freedom!

Sabbath Prayers: The Road Ahead.

I identify strongly with Thomas Merton’s heart in this prayer entitled “The Road Ahead” this evening.  

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going.  I do not see the road ahead of me.  I cannot know for certain where it will end.  Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.  But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.  And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.  I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.  And I know that if I do this, you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.  Therefore, I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.  I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.  (Thomas Merton)

Sometimes this is my heart more frequently than I’d ever wish to admit.  C.S. Lewis wrote in Mere Christianity that he ‘woke up each morning a practical atheist,’ and that there was a momentary split second where he would choose to will his heart either toward or away from God that day.  I feel that tension in my life all too often, and frankly, live far too many moments willingly apart from the Christ who dwells within me.

And yet Merton’s words bring comfort, for in some mysterious way, even as I ‘live apart’ from Christ, Christ lives this ‘with me’ in some manner.  This is quite possibly what grace experientially feels like…

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